I went up to New York yesterday morning for a quick ~24 hour trip with some fabulous girlfriends and had some wonderful meals/drinks/laughs. We stayed at a place we found on AirBnB in Alphabet City, visited Kleinfeld to ooh/aww over wedding dresses, and didn’t get enough sleep. It was the kind of weekend that reminded me of how fortunate I am to live in DC and that I have wonderful and generous people in my life, for which I am truly thankful. I really didn’t take any pictures of my own because the weather was wet and cold yesterday, but my memories will sustain me until I’m able to get back up there.
My Trip in a Few Words Meals/Drinks
I’m at Empellón Cocina (105 1st Ave, btwn 6th & 7th St, New York) 4sq.com/VYZVhB
After Rye House, but before dinner, we met up with friends of a friend for more drinks that their apartment and then caught a cab back across town. At dinner, my phone was dying and I was thus unable to log that I was at Supper.
This morning, we caught a cab to the bus pick-up site, hit up the coffee shop, and napped heavily on the way home. Good times were had by all.
I don’t like talking about my history of depression and anxiety online. It’s a part of myself I share freely in person (and I’m sure my friends would sometimes like to bonk me over the head when I get wound up), but I don’t like talking about it here. At this point though, I have to write about it to get past it.
I’ve spent the last three weeks just trying to get through my days. Getting up. Going to work. Going to the gym. Eating healthy foods. Counting down the hours until I can crawl back into bed. Lather. Rinse. Repeat.
This is the worst bout of it I’ve experienced in three years.
I’m thankful that school is over for the summer and that husband is incredibly supportive and understanding. I’m thankful for friends who understand as well. I’m thankful I discovered the inane stupidity of The Office on Netflix. I’m thankful today’s weather was beautiful and has allowed me to sit on the patio.
Most of the things I had planned for this summer are being cut. I’m probably not going to take up kayaking again until next summer. We canceled our vacation to Seattle. My plans to build and launch an informational/training site for admins is being revised. My plan to write some long blog postings for my portfolio site hasn’t materialized. My plan to establish an S corp for my part time job work hasn’t happened yet either. I’m trying really hard not to beat myself up over these items. There are only so many hours in a day and for years I’ve trying to cram too much into them.
The summer isn’t over yet. I do plan to enjoy the nice days. Hang out with Lucky. Go to the pool. Go see some movies. Have brunch with my friends. Spend time with husband. Laugh. Live. Enjoy.
So…my blog posting about depression and anxiety isn’t and is about depression and anxiety. This post will probably make sense only to me and maybe a few other people who are close to me in real life.
That’s ok. I just need to breathe and remind myself of the good things in life. This too, shall pass.